Why My Friend Pisses Me Off. (Rant)

I decided to make this a blog because that is where it should stay, as a blog that no one looks at.

Okay, so I'm FTM, or somewhere along the lines between being female and male and I move along that a lot. It's not new.

I've FUCKING told my friend to call me George. But NOOOOO. She calls me from my female name. What's with that? I don't call you anything you don't want me to call you, but you won't let me have the happiness of someone I know calling me George?

I've told them that I'm not exactly female, but they don't give a flying crap. Apperantly I'm suppose to do all the caring about they're fucking life but they can't do the same for me!

Want to know why I'm so pissed? My friend, whose new on facebook, is being a bit of a bitch. I'd get why she's freaking, because her brother whose she just found on facebook, hasn't been on for a whole year. Big deal, because people. don't. spend. all. their. lives. on. fucking. facebook! Maybe it was his resolution to quit facebook?

I don't want to fucking remind them every time to call me George, to stop gender binding me into my female body! I DON'T CARE IF YOUR STUPID, OR YOU CAN'T REMEMBER FUCKING THINGS BECAUSE YOU KILLED BRAIN CELLS BANGING YOUR FUCKING HEAD ON THE WALL, YOU SHOULD BE AT LEAST BE ABLE TO REMEMBER ABOUT THE IMPORTANT POINTS IN SOMEONE WHO IS OTHER THAN YOU'S LIFE.

This person pisses me off. It is always about her. Always. "I can't feel human emotion, when a baby fall I feel nothing", bitch, please! When a baby falls, I freak. I freak because I care about people other than my fucking self.

This person has not noticed a bunch of things that are important to me. They forgot about the fact that I have lost people to cancer and said they wished they're mom would get cancer so she'd know what she's doing to herself- She didn't even know to fucking say sorry for that!

She always the victim. Always. The principal doesn't help with her bullying. Bitch please, my principal basically made me cry in front of my whole class because I stood up to a bully. Her life apperantly sucks, but she has a home, food, clothing, school, a chance to go to Ottawa for a converence. The last part? Me and my mom worked for that. Yea. We did, we did a last minute job so that we could go to Ottawa together.

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Anyways, the reason she pisses me off at the moment, other than the George thing, which I've explained, she brought up that I don't have a penis, here it is:

ME: PSSSH. your mom was one of the first women lawyers that's inuk. You have an Aija brain

HER: and you have know penis! (dont know how that got in but yah)

ME: THAT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE.
KNOW
NO.
IT'S NOT THAT FUCKING HARD.
DON'T MAKE FUN OF MY PENIS.

HER: i'm angry and fucked up and hungry and compaining and stupid and i dont know why were online fighting or why i should be angry, and know i'm off track.....

ME: GO eat. STOP complaining, we're not fighting. you made fun of my penis


HER: oh
whait you dont have penis.....do you?
i mean wait

ME: Yes, My penis is invisible....
LMFAO I don't have one yet

HER: yet?!

ME: Fuck you.

HER: sorry i just dont understant what you ment


-That girl, is fucking 13 years old.

I'm pissed because she makes fun of something that feels horrible. And I can't be all like, BITCH, stop, and tell her the problem because then she'll be all defensive and blame her mind, because she thinks that when she use to hit her head on the wall made her stupid that she can't remember anything.

It pisses me off. No matter what I do, I can't get attention from people like her. People who are suppose to be my friend. I was afraid to come out as bisexual because of her. Because she called me a copy because I dyed my hair red once, with this wash out stuff because our other friend dyed her hair red.

It just pisses me off and I'm tired of this. I'm tired of sitting in the back seat with my friends. I'm tired of them not caring enough. I'm tired of being the person who puts in 110% for them and barely gets 20% of caring back. It pisses. me. off.

Sorry. Just... Hurt :/